Dream Changer

As I was sitting this afternoonI realized....

how my dreams have changed.
Not compromised, not deflated, not forgotten,
But truly changed.


I use to dream of living in the same house forever, of being Home.
Of taking exotic vacations with my family.
Of partnership in a firm
To stand in security
To be swept away by romance
To always know good health
For life to not change.
and of course to follow Jesus

but he is wise who gives up what He cannot gain to gain what he cannot lose.
And this is what I find myself dreaming of this afternoon...


How all I want to do is follow Him - really be sold out to His call on my life.
I want Him to be our home. I want our kids to feel most at home when they are spending time alone with their Savior.
I want to travel, but so I can meet the bride of Christ that lives outside of the walls of my country - I want to minister alongside of Pete, Michael, Allie and Alex and share Him with my world.
I want the only one who owns our lives, to be the One who paid for them.
I'd rather need Him, than be comfortable.
I want to see Christ's glory perfected in  my beloved....that is so beyond romance.
I want to be whole.
As life changes, and it will, I want to embrace His will, not question it.
And I want my Jesus to have so much more than my Sundays.


Oh, how He is changing me. He says He'll give us the desires of our heart,  but sometimes He has to change our desires first.


Prasie be to the One changing my dreams. In his chains, I am so free.

Meet A Boy...

This is a boy I met today. He rocked my world a bit. I took his picture for an adoption profile for a local adoption agency here in Redding. He had such an innocence about him for a boy whose world has been pretty messed up and anything but protected. He had such a drawing hope and joy about his eyes and I was completely drawn in to his little world. When I asked him what he wanted his new parents to be like he replied, " I want a mom who can cook good food and a dad who can watch tv with me."
It's got me thinking about a lot of stuff tonight....and how my heart was pulled by meeting this boy.